Alexandra Lea brigitte Baxter

1999 - 2003
LocationDoncaster
Age4 years
Cause of DeathPneumonia
Date of Birth22/11/1999
Date of Death11/12/2003
Visitors2,174 since 26/06/2007
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I just want to thank everyone who visits Alexs site and lights a candle or leaves a message they
mean more than words can say. Thankyou.

Alex (as she was known) was born on the 22nd November 1999. She was our first child. I had no
problems with my pregnancy or the birth (she was 10 days late) so it came as a shock when she was
diagnosed 2-4 weeks later which Congenital CMV and later on severe cerebral palsy.
She was a beautiful girl with brown curling hair and the most enormous eyelashes. She learnt to
laugh at 9 months old and i can still hear it in my head. It made everyone smile when she laughed.
Alex apprciated the simple things in life and taught me the value of it.
When her brother Adam was born she laughed and soon got used to him crawling on her. I still
remember him toddling down the ramp when you came home from school shouting ally. ally.
Alex died just after her 4th birthday on December 11th 2003. She died of a severe chest infection.
Her gravestone describes a lot of how we feel:-
her laughter we hear no more
her smile we do not see
our little girl who fought so hard
resting peacefully.
Alex really fought hard for life and i really miss her. I could understand what she was saying
instantly. I could even stop her having epileptic fits if i caught her in time. I knew when she was
ready to leave because she was tired and needed a rest. Her body just wasnt giving her any. Six
months previous to this we were told she was going to die and to turn of her life support i refused.
She had the worst chest infection ever seen and docs said there was no way she was going to pull
through but she did and blessed us with six extra months of her love.
When Alex died she had 2 brothers Adam who was 18months old and Matthew at 11 weeks when she died.
Adam can still remember bits about her.
Alex had just started school in the september term and she went every day up until half term and she
loved it. I have photos, diaries and pictures etc that school gave me and i will always be thankful
for there presence in her life and the happiness they gave her. That half term was the most well she
had been for months she laughed everyday. She loved swimming and kicking in the water, hand
clapping, hidey boo and just laying on the floor kicking. When she died part of me and my heart went
with her. Ill never get it back. We were with her when she passed away and the memory still hurts to
this day though i wouldnt have changed not being there for the world.
Life has changed now, me and my husband say we have lived 2 lives 1 with Alex and 1 with her 2
brothers. My husband is using what gift she gave him to become a childrens nurse (1 year to go). I
know people say there is a reason for everything and im still trying to figure this part of my life
out. Alex was and still is our princess and i know that she is at peace in heaven. I wouldnt of
wanted not to have the privilege of not knowing her so hopefully the pain of her going will get
easier to bear.
I know i have a very special Angel at my side that i am very proud to call my daughter. Love you
always Alex and see you tonight in the brightest star in the sky. Sleep tight precious.


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To alex
Although your in heaven u will never be forgotten,
as your family live on with the memories
i am sure you are looking down on your family
and helping them through the hardest of times
until you are reunited with them again............
to her family i would just like to say i dont know
you but i would just like to say she was and still is
a gorgeous little girl who is now in gods hands he
will take good care of her until you are with her again
my heart goes out to you all and hope that this gets you through some of the hard times
skylajac
xxxooo

Skye Garnham Yesterday afternoon

"Christmas in Heaven"

I see the countless Christmas trees
around the world below
with tiny lights like heaven's stars
reflecting on the snow.

The sight is so spectacular,
please wipe away that tear
for I am spending Christmas
with Jesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs
that people hold so dear
but the sounds of music can't compare
with the Christmas choir up here.

I have no words to tell you
of the joy their voices bring
for it is beyond description
to hear the angels sing.

I know how much you miss me,
I see the pain inside your heart
for I am spending Christmas
with Jesus Christ this year.
I can't tell you of the splendor
or the peace here in this place
Can you just imagine Christmas
with our Savior face to face?

I'll ask him to lift your spirit
as I tell him of your love
so then pray for one another
as you lift your eyes above.

Please let your hearts be joyful
and let your spirit sing
for I am spending Christmas in heaven
and I'm walking with the King.

~ by Wanda Bencke
© Copyright 1999

Sabina D (GTS Friend) December 11, 2008

As i lay awake at night
While others are asleep
I take my trips down memory lane
With tears upon my cheeks
Noone knows my sorrow
I try so hard to hide
Noone knows how many times
I have broken down and cried
I cried because i love you
I cried because i care
I i cry because when i awake
I know that your not there
So please forgive me Alex
Never be sad or blue
Even though your not with me
I truely do love you.

all my love princess
love auntie Kayla xx

Mykaela Baxter (Auntie) December 11, 2008

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Love to you and your family this christmas x

Marion Cheney December 11, 2008

A handicapped child is a special life
But a lot of hard work and plenty of strife
she may not walk or talk or play
In her own world she's locked away
These children are sent from heaven above
They are Angels on earth for us to love
Their time on earth may only be short
But there's lessons from them we must be taught.

Don't turn your back or walk away
'Look at that poor child' I hear you say
this child's not poor I want to yell
she's rich in love and doing well
This poem of mine comes from my heart
this child has died I'm torn apart
But her smiling face I will always picture
A precious girl, who mad life so much richer. godbless xxxxx

"Angel"
Tear drops, slow and steady,
The pain so real and true,
God took another angel,
And that angel, dear, was you.

Angel wings, upon the clouds,
Your body softly sleeps,
Hush now little angel,
No more tears you have to weep.

Little prayers,are sent to you,
The short life you led;
Your family will never forget you,
So rest your little head.

I know God will look after you,
Now you are truly alive,
Your spirit soars beyond the moon,
Your legacy will survive.

You’re beautiful, you’re endless,
Now stretch your wings and fly,
Your loved by so many,
It will never be goodbye.

Close your pretty eyes,
No more tears,just go and rest,
Let your soul lie peacefully,
we know you did your best.

A poem written by mellanie campbell
for all the GTS little angels x

Mell Campbell November 22, 2008

Tiny Angels
Tiny Angels rest your wings
sit with me for awhile.
How I long to hold your hand,
And see your tender smile.
Tiny Angel, look at me,
I want this image clear....
That I will forget your precious face
Is my biggest fear.
Tiny Angel can you tell me,
Why you have gone away?
You weren't here for very long....
Why is it, you couldn't stay?
Tiny Angel shook his head,
"These things I do not know....
But I do know that you love me,
And that I love you so".

Author Unknown

Kim Traore November 22, 2008

*♥~Bereaved Birthdays~♥*

*♥*
Birthdays are a time for celebration
Not a time for tears
But what happens when the birthdays
No longer mark the years?
*♥~♥*
A birthday marks the moment
A spirit enters earthly life
To share it's special love and joy
And learn from earthly strife.
*♥~♥~♥*
Before a spirit comes to us
It knows when and how it must depart
It chose it's path carefully
We are honoured from the start.
*♥~♥~♥~♥*
The sadness we now feel
On such a joyous day
Is longing for our loved one's touch
It's natural to feel this way.
*♥~♥~♥~♥~♥*
For even though the birthdays
No longer mark a spirit's stay
Love continues on forever
To touch us every day.
*♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥*
So hug your precious memories
Closer to your heart
And honour your beloved spirit child
Who chose you from the start.
*♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥*
(Author Unknown)
*♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥*

*♥~For Sarah & family~♥felt love, thoughts & blessings always & particularly today~Sue~xXx~♥*

Sue Worsley November 22, 2008

"I'll lend you for a little time
A child of Mine," He said,
"For you to love the while she lives,
And mourn for when she's dead.
It may be six or seven years
Or twenty-two or three,
But will you, till I call her back,
Take care of her for Me?
She'll bring her charms to gladden you,
And should her stay be brief,
You'll have her lovely memories
As solace for your grief."

"I cannot promise she will stay,
Since all from earth return.
But there are lessons taught down there
I want this child to learn.
I've looked this wide world over,
In my search for teachers true.
And from the throngs that crowd life's lanes,
I have selected you.
Now will you give her all your love,
Not think the labor vain,
Nor hate Me when I come to call
And take her back again?"

I fancied that I heard them say,
"Dear Lord, Thy will be done,
For all the joy Thy child shall bring,
The risk of grief we'll run.
We'll shelter her with tenderness,
We'll love her while we may,
And for the happiness we've known,
Forever grateful stay.
But should the angels call for her,
Much sooner than we planned,
We'll brave the bitter grief that comes,
And try to understand."

Sarah North November 17, 2008

DADDY DID IT.

Hi Alex just to let you know Daddy did it he qualified as a nurse and is working on special baby care unit and loves every minute of it. Thanks you sweetheart. Ill post pics of hi in his graduation outfit after the ceremony in january. Miss you loads babe and getting reading for your birthday and day you died. Lots and lots of love Angel. Mummy.xxxxxxxxx

Sarah Baxter (Mummy) November 2, 2008
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